I’ve had conflicted feelings about getting a “summer” job. I got one actually, at Subway, but ended up turning it down realizing I’m already working two “real” jobs that I love.
With all of my friends getting hired at different places as summer help, I can’t help but feel guilty sitting at home all day in front of photoshop. I just feel as if I’m cheating on a part of my life – a “teenage” job that I hate, like I have to pay my dues to be happy. Cory told me that I’m nuts, that most people work their whole lives to get to have a job that they love, he says the goal is to feel like you’re not working at all. I know that he’s right, that God has blessed me with not one but two wonderful, well above minimum wage, jobs that I more than look forward to each morning as I wake up. So why do I feel like this is all so wrong? Why am I embarrassed that I’m not flipping burgers at Mickey D’s? I wish I could answer this because it has had me stressed beyond belief.
I am a young business woman, starting a successful photography business at the age of fifteen. I am a determined young lady, landing a job at a well known dance studio just outside of Columbus when they weren’t even hiring. I know that my hard work has gotten me where I am, that my mature nature landed me the jobs of my dreams in my teen years. All this considered, I can’t help but feel as if I’ve cheated a little bit, that I zoomed past the “teen” job landing an “adult” job instead. Believe me, I am NOT complaining about this at all, I love that work doesn’t feel like work to me. All I am saying is that I’ve been feeling a tad bit guilty knowing I’m editing in the a.c. while my boyfriend is frying on a mower under the hot summer sun.
It’s a God thing. I have no other explanation for how I got so lucky. I know that I am responsible, determined, hard working and organized, but I also know that on my own those traits can only get me so far, the rest is in God’s hands. I’m trying to lose these feelings of uneasiness over this whole job thing. I’m done questioning. Instead I’ll send up a prayer of thanks and enjoy the opportunities I’ve been given. I believe I can do great things – make a difference in many young lives. I have been placed in two amazing positions in which I can spread my wings and soar. You can’t say that about every “summer” job. I have been blessed and I have promised myself to take full advantage of the opportunities at hand. Cory’s right, I have what most people want. Why question? Why not just enjoy?
Note: these images are from classes I taught last year.